Techno Camp is official over.  Last night was a “graduation” ceremony where the parents were invited to see what the campers had done during their two weeks.  In some cases, it didn’t appear that they had done all that much, but in those cases, the parents didn’t seem too surprised or overly disappointed.  I guess they know their kids pretty well and didn’t expect miracles out of us – definitely a good thing.  Overall, I think it was a pretty nice experience for all concerned, though.  I met some really good kids and some obviously caring parents – another good thing.

Now, of course, I’m back to having to fill my own days with activities without the benefit of some external impetus like work or school.  In about a month, we’ll be venturing up to north Georgia for a wedding, but until then I’ll be searching to things to occupy my mind and my time.  I’m a little disgruntled with myself for having this as an issue, feeling that it shouldn’t even be an issue and wouldn’t be for stronger, more normal people.  But I also have to recognize that it is, in fact, an issue – idleness and depression can go hand in hand with me, so I need to launch this search with gusto.

The college has been ever so kind as to provide at least one small task to occupy me – more forms to complete (again) regarding my financial aid for next year.  I’m not sure why it has all become such a problem for them this year, but they seem “concerned” by how little money I have to live on, and want all sorts of documentation regarding how I’m managing such a feat.  In the forms I’ve already supplied, I’ve explained that I am dependent on the kindness of strange sisters, but they seem less than satisfied and want me to complete the same forms again.  Hence, my Monday next week will probably be spent parked in the Financial Aid office at the college trying to explain the complex financial arrangement and circumstances that allow my sister to claim me as a dependent, but still makes me independent as far as the college is concerned.  <sigh>  I anticipate that this will NOT be a fun Monday.

Assuming that I manage to get that little misunderstanding settled Monday (unlikely, but I can hope), I still need things to do.  Naturally, I’ll have plenty of opportunity for activity by cleaning my room (which still looks like a rather largish tornado has had its way in here), but since that is a thankless task that I’m sure I’ll try to avoid, I’d better have other projects lined up to use as a “reward”.  I always having reading as a reward, and I might start watching some of these movies that we’ve bought but I’ve never sat down to watch.  But I think I do better if I have something more constructive to do.  

I’ve wracked my brain trying to find something both fun and productive and I keep coming back to the same project – a new and improved personal website.  Now, I need this like I need another hole in my head.  As I’ve said before, I have two “active” sites that I can link to.  However, the oldest site has some pages that don’t work and others that are unbearably slow to load.  The newest was created for my Web Design I class and I wasn’t anxious to include too much for fear of not getting it done in time for a grade.  Add to those considerations that I’ve learned a fair amount of new web design skills and it all adds up to my decision to work on this whether it’s needed or not.

Now I’ve just got to consider what sort of look I want for the site, what sorts of things I want to include and which tools I want to use for this look and those things.  This, of course, involves decision making – not my forte – so I’m sure this will take me most, if not all, of the summer.  That’s a good thing.  It will also mean that I’m not likely to want to work on cleaning up and organizing my room.  That’s a bad thing.  But that’s life, isn’t it – taking the good with the bad.

"...taking the good with the bad."

Yes, that is, indeed, life. The older I get, the more I think life is a series of trade-offs, to be honest. To have this, one sacrifices that; to get that, one lets go of this. It's all a series of trade-offs, if you really look at the pattern our lives take.

Well, pattern or no pattern, I hope you have a nice weekend, K'Jan. Maybe getting outside and just enjoying the weather will help you with the things you need to do, too.

Outside? You forget I live in Florida -- it's god-awful hot out there! No, I think I'll take the good with the A/C inside and leave the bad old heat outside where it belongs.