I can tell already that this day is going to creep by.  I’ve been at work for only an hour and I’m ready to go home.  But I have a class this evening anyway, so I might as well stay.  Besides, I was out for two days this week with the flu – I need the hours.  So, being stuck here until 5:30, I decided to catch up on my blog.  God forbid I actually work!  I have managed to do some constructive tasks during my first hour so what more do they expect from a die-hard slacker like me.

Psychiatrically, I’m still doing well.  I’ve been a bit sluggish and unmotivated, but Dr. Leo seems to feel that it’s because of the increase in the Lamictal and I should perk up once I’m used to it.  I certainly hope so – it’s nearing the end of the semester and the crunch is on.  I have a million things to do and not enough hours to do them all, especially if I spend my time reading and smoking instead of doing homework and projects.

Besides the crunch to get everything done before May 8th, I’m facing the upcoming summer with a bit of trepidation.  There aren’t any classes I can take this summer, even if I could come up with the money to pay the tuition.  I haven’t asked directly, but I’m pretty sure that I can’t work as a student employee over the summer.  That leaves me with entirely too much time on my hands – not a good thing for me.  I imagine that I could come up with some projects to keep me busy, but lacking in self-motivation makes it seem unlikely that I’ll follow through on any of them.

Well, I suppose I’ll have to cross that bridge when I come to it.  I already have something scheduled for the first week after school ends – jury duty.  Blech.  I was actually summoned a few months ago, but I was able to get out of it by providing an alternate time I would be available.  I was rather hoping that they would forget all about me, but alas that is not the case.  The worst part is the hanging around the courthouse waiting to see if you actually get called in.  I think they have a way that you can check in on the internet before you actually arrive to see if your number is going to be called.  That would be nice.

I also suppose that I could actually start an exercise program and go to the gym on a regular basis.  I’ve been putting it off, using the excuse that I don’t have enough time.  Time will be something I have in abundance during the summer so my excuse has been deflated.  It will make Ray a happy camper if I actually follow through with it, so that’s worth something.  On the other hand, getting all sweaty and icky at the gym isn’t exactly appealing to a professional couch potato.

I guess I should try to do something constructive either for work or school now.  Between the lack of internet connection at home (which I think we have finally solved) and the flu, I’m a bit behind in the homework department.  In fact, I have homework due tonight that I haven’t even started on.  So, on that pleasant note, I think I’d better wrap this blog up.  I want to thank everyone for being so supportive of me during my pendulum swings.  It hasn’t been pleasant, but such is the life of a boring, blogging bipolar.

Hi K'Jan. You mentioned that you haven't asked about being a student employee over the summer. I don't have all the facts, so please forgive me if this sounds dumb, but if you haven't asked about working over the summer, how do you know you can't?

The weight thing I can totally relate to. I tell myself that getting all sweaty and stuff is a good thing, because it means my body is getting rid of toxins. Sometimes that works for me - especially because it's the truth - but sometimes it doesn't. I guess it's whatever you feel at that moment...

I hope you're feeling better now, K'Jan. That flu bug has really been knocking the stuffing out of people, eh? Get well soon!

Hey K'Jan, just coming by to see how you're doing and let you know I'm thinking of you. I hope you have a good day and a good week...

Hi K'Jan. Just dropping in to say hi and let you know I'm thinking about you. I hope you're doing okay; it's been awhile since you last posted. Is everything okay? Please take care...

You okay?