Techno Camp is official over. Last night was a “graduation” ceremony where the parents were invited to see what the campers had done during their two weeks. In some cases, it didn’t appear that they had done all that much, but in those cases, the parents didn’t seem too surprised or overly disappointed. I guess they know their kids pretty well and didn’t expect miracles out of us – definitely a good thing. Overall, I think it was a pretty nice experience for all concerned, though. I met some really good kids and some obviously caring parents – another good thing.
Now, of course, I’m back to having to fill my own days with activities without the benefit of some external impetus like work or school. In about a month, we’ll be venturing up to north Georgia for a wedding, but until then I’ll be searching to things to occupy my mind and my time. I’m a little disgruntled with myself for having this as an issue, feeling that it shouldn’t even be an issue and wouldn’t be for stronger, more normal people. But I also have to recognize that it is, in fact, an issue – idleness and depression can go hand in hand with me, so I need to launch this search with gusto.
The college has been ever so kind as to provide at least one small task to occupy me – more forms to complete (again) regarding my financial aid for next year. I’m not sure why it has all become such a problem for them this year, but they seem “concerned” by how little money I have to live on, and want all sorts of documentation regarding how I’m managing such a feat. In the forms I’ve already supplied, I’ve explained that I am dependent on the kindness of strange sisters, but they seem less than satisfied and want me to complete the same forms again. Hence, my Monday next week will probably be spent parked in the Financial Aid office at the college trying to explain the complex financial arrangement and circumstances that allow my sister to claim me as a dependent, but still makes me independent as far as the college is concerned. <sigh> I anticipate that this will NOT be a fun Monday.
Assuming that I manage to get that little misunderstanding settled Monday (unlikely, but I can hope), I still need things to do. Naturally, I’ll have plenty of opportunity for activity by cleaning my room (which still looks like a rather largish tornado has had its way in here), but since that is a thankless task that I’m sure I’ll try to avoid, I’d better have other projects lined up to use as a “reward”. I always having reading as a reward, and I might start watching some of these movies that we’ve bought but I’ve never sat down to watch. But I think I do better if I have something more constructive to do.
I’ve wracked my brain trying to find something both fun and productive and I keep coming back to the same project – a new and improved personal website. Now, I need this like I need another hole in my head. As I’ve said before, I have two “active” sites that I can link to. However, the oldest site has some pages that don’t work and others that are unbearably slow to load. The newest was created for my Web Design I class and I wasn’t anxious to include too much for fear of not getting it done in time for a grade. Add to those considerations that I’ve learned a fair amount of new web design skills and it all adds up to my decision to work on this whether it’s needed or not.
Now I’ve just got to consider what sort of look I want for the site, what sorts of things I want to include and which tools I want to use for this look and those things. This, of course, involves decision making – not my forte – so I’m sure this will take me most, if not all, of the summer. That’s a good thing. It will also mean that I’m not likely to want to work on cleaning up and organizing my room. That’s a bad thing. But that’s life, isn’t it – taking the good with the bad.
The first week of Techno Camp (and, yes, that’s its official name) ended without bloodshed – a real accomplishment when you think about it. I did sort of threaten one kid with possible violence. He was playing an internet game and when I asked him to stop that and start working on his website he told me he liked bloody games. I told him that unless the next blood he wanted to see was his own, he’d get off the game NOW. That elicited a rather startled look on his part, but he did get off the game – rather swiftly, in fact. Score one for the adults. Next week, we’ll have a new group of kids to threaten, er, work with.
One of the kids asked me if I had a website and, without thinking, I said I did. She asked me for the address so she could see it, so I gave it to her. It wasn’t until she actually went to the site that I began wondering if that was such a good idea. I write pretty candidly about mental illness and all its manifestations – was that really something that someone 13 or 14 years old should be reading, especially about someone they “know?” It’s funny. I “hide” behind the Dragonrider K’Jan persona, yet I have a link to my site and my blog on my Facebook account. It’s like I’m afraid to come out of the closet, but not afraid to let people into the closet with me. Weird.
Of course, watching these kids work on their own websites got me wanting to create another personal site of my own. I have NO idea why I would want to. Over the years, I’ve created three other sites, although only two are still accessible (the folks at Road Runner lost my very first site), and they all basically say the same sorts of things. On the other hand, I’ve gained so much knowledge regarding the mechanics of building the sites that I want to keep practicing and improving my skills. While I have been working on a site for a friend – my first paying gig – it’s not the same. There are constraints to doing a site for someone else. I enjoy it, of course, or I wouldn’t be doing it, wouldn’t be training to do it for a living. Yep, I can foresee another website being built over the summer – AFTER I finish my friend’s site, though.
The next two days are going to be devoted to rest and recuperation with a hint of preparation for next week. I can see some things we can improve on so I want to write up some handouts for the kids to use as guides. In fact, my mind is whirling with ideas so I’m not sure how much rest I’m going to get. On the other hand, not having to get up early tomorrow morning will help immensely in the rest department. Noon. Yes, noon sounds like a perfect time to get up.
Hot. Hot, hot, hot, hot, hot. It is so f**king hot in here. Yesterday I was just sore and tired. Today I’m not only sore and tired but drenched in sweat. Last night our air conditioning conked out. Now, keep in mind I live in Florida. You know, the Sunshine State located in the tropics with all the heat, humidity and killer mosquitoes? Yeah, that Florida. The really, really, really hot state. Okay, maybe it’s hotter in the desert states, but this is still pretty darn hot. Have I adequately conveyed just how hot it is and how discontented I am with the current state of affairs?
My sister, who apparently spent most of the day out shopping with my niece, thought it was just because the air filter needed changing and the system froze up. She crawled up in the attic, changed the filter, shut down the system for an hour to unfreeze it and hoped that fixed the problem. When I arrived home, it was clear that it was not by any stretch of the imagination fixed. I was adamant – we needed professional help and we needed it immediately if not sooner. So we bit the bullet (or the checkbook) and called out a repair personage (at their prices, the warrant the term “personage”, perhaps even “illustrious personage”). We now await his/her arrival and this darned laptop is too hot to keep on my lap any longer.
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As usual, there’s good news and bad news. The Holy High Priest of Air Conditioning arrived well within the time allotted. He went to the compressor and prayed over it, shook chicken bones at it and performed all sorts of other arcane and mysterious rites. He finally returned and said, “Yea verily, the compressor is dead. I can make it rise again, however, for a princely sum, such as all your worldly goods.” By this point, I think I would have given him all I owned and ever hoped to own in my lifetime just for the assurance of a good night’s sleep in air conditioned comfort. So readily we agreed and he went forth to his truck and returned with the necessary parts and completed the repairs. The good news – we’re already feeling a difference in the ambient temperature of our abode. The bad news of course is the significant reduction in our already strapped finances.
I don’t care about money at this moment, though. The sweat is no longer dripping from my brow – that’s what’s important. And my dog, George, is no longer laying in misery at the foot of my bed panting from the heat (he’s just as spoiled as me) – that’s what’s important. And the money? Well, we’ll figure something out. We always do. We’ll scrimp a little here and there and try not to let our rapidly falling credit ratings hit us on the head on the way down. We live in Florida and we have air conditioning – that’s what’s important.
Ouch. Ouch, ouch, ouch. There are these achy, tingling things at the ends of my sore and tired legs. I think they were once my feet, but I can’t be sure now. The rest of my body is okay, but from the hips down, I’m a mess. What brought this terrible state to pass, you may ask? Well, this is what happens when you take a lazy, sedentary old lady and throw her into a classroom with some middle school kids who are trying to learn web design from a Chinese teacher at summer camp. My job was to walk around helping kids keep up, answering questions and such. That meant that I spent the vast majority of the 5 hours on my feet or walking around the classroom. Ouch. I say again, ouch.
All in all, it wasn’t horrible, though. The kids were basically good, decently behaved kids who seem to want to learn this stuff. It’s a free summer camp offered by the public school system in conjunction with the college, but the kids had to apply to get in and not all were accepted – there were just more applications then there were slots to put them in. There were a couple boys who were younger than the rest and needed a lot more help (especially when they weren’t paying attention the part of the time), but even they were willing to work to keep up.
Tomorrow may be different since half the kids didn’t show up due to some mix up with the buses – we had 12 kids today, but may have a total of 24 tomorrow. That will mean that half the class will have to learn everything we taught today, while the other half will be ready to move on to new stuff. That’s going to make things interesting, to say the least. And it’s also likely to entail a lot more walking around the classroom answering questions. I guess you can imagine my reaction to that thought – ouch. I can only hope that I have enough ibuprofen on hand to deal with all the aches and pains I’m sure to have tomorrow.
Yesterday, I said to myself, “Self, tomorrow you’re going to be more productive. No goofing off. No computer doodling.” Unfortunately, today’s self is saying, “Hey, yesterday’s self, speak for yourself. I’ll goof off if I damned well please.” Yesterday’s self is all huffy now and refuses to talk to today’s self. Today’s self is filled with righteous indignation about yesterday’s self’s presumptuousness. It gets pretty confusing when you argue with yourself from one day to the next. I think this is a sure and certain sign that my summer job is coming not a moment too soon.
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Well, it’s apparent that today’s self has won the day – I did pretty much nothing productive, useful or goal-oriented. In fact, I’m not at all sure what I did all day except that it’s now approaching bedtime and I can only cross one thing off my list – having coffee at Starbucks with my friend, Julie. Oh, and since she was able to proofread my scholarship essay, I posted that and submitted my application online. So a few clicks of a button are all I have to show for this day. Not good. Not good at all.
On the other hand, it IS summer, the season where many people take some time to goof off and recharge their mental/emotional batteries. Perhaps that’s what I’m doing – recharging my batteries. The first half of this year has been long and arduous. I went through a major depressive and hypomanic episode all while taking four classes and working 30 hours a week (and still managed to pull some decent grades – three A’s and a B+). So maybe it’s a good thing to spend couple of days here and there to just drift along as the mood strikes.
Of course, being bipolar, I always have to watch these little changes in mood and behavior, analyzing them to make sure they don’t signal a problem. And that’s a bit tiresome, you know? Every time you feel a little down, you have to wonder if it’s just normal, everyday blues, or clinical depression. Even when you’re feeling really good, you think to yourself, “Am I feeling TOO good? Is this the start of something manic?” Yeah, it can be a real drag, but everyone has their little crosses to bear. Being bipolar isn’t fun, but it could be worse.
So, having determined that I’m neither depressed nor manic, I guess I can relax a bit and just enjoy this lackadaisical mood. I have a few days to prepare for my summer adventure next week with the kiddies and not all that much that I have to do to get ready. There should be time enough to get those few things done and I’m sure I’ll be able to handle the pressures of the job better if I’m rested and refreshed with my batteries fully charged. Maybe this is a good thing after all.
Today has been a rather lazy day for me – not much accomplished but I haven’t felt particularly bored. I got up at a reasonable hour (8 am), goofed off until around noon, got ready and went to a meeting at the church, came home and goofed off again. Now it’s about 6 pm and my sister will be coming home from work soon wanting to know what we should do about dinner (we still can’t cook in the kitchen) and I haven’t given it any thought. <sigh> What a whirlwind life I lead.
During those copious amounts of time spent goofing off, I was engaged in the computer equivalent of doodling. My sister in Georgia is a master doodler – given a writing utensil (preferably a gel pen) and something to write on and she’s doodling. I’ve been known to doodle a bit myself, but I’m a rank amateur compared to her. Doodling on the computer is very different although the intent is the same – to while away some time without having to engage our brains or body to any great extent.
So, you may ask (or not), how in the hell do you doodle on the computer? Many people probably do this without realizing that they’re doodling – it’s sometimes referred to as “surfing the ‘net”. For this really to be considered doodling, however, you have to have absolutely no purpose in mind. Hours spent looking up resorts for a dream vacation is not doodling – that’s research, even if you don’t intend to take said vacation in your lifetime. To truly doodle on the computer, you have to start looking up one topic – say, resorts – and hours later find yourself looking up something completely different – say, medieval costumes. In between, you must have looked at several unrelated topics, the more the better. You don’t necessarily have to visit multiple websites to engage in doodling. There are at least three sites that I frequent that offer an abundant source of doodling material: Wikipedia, YouTube and Facebook.
Wikipedia is an encyclopedia compiled by internet users who may or may not have any earthly idea what they’re talking about. I would never use it as a source for my dissertation, but it can be a lot of fun since it contains a multitude of cross-links allowing you to jump from topic to topic without any effort at all. Most of the articles also include a list of sources and external sites to give you some indication of how valid the information you’re reading is, and also give you another place to roam while you’re doodling.
YouTube is sort of the audio-visual version of this. I tend to avoid the “featured videos” but instead search for a topic that makes me think of another topic where a related video triggers yet another topic. This is where I spent most of this afternoon. I wondered if there was anything new about Andrew Johnston (who was a 13 year old contestant on Britain’s Got Talent) which led me to other boy sopranos which led me to the Vienna Boy’s Choir (with a side trip to their official site) which led me to… well I forget now, but I ended up watching video clips of Black Adder for a while.
Facebook is there for social networking but it also offers a plethora of time-wasting quizzes and pages and causes and groups just for the purpose of doodling (I took a quiz that told me that of the Star Trek: Next Generation characters, I’m most like Picard and another that told me that of dog breeds I’m most like a basset hound). Not all of them are stupid – there are some really worthy causes represented and lately they’ve had a thing for polls about some hot-topic social issues, like same sex marriages. I think the key to using Facebook to doodle is that you don’t spend any great amount of time doing any one thing and seldom are the things you do related to one another.
There is another way of doodling on the computer – it’s called blogging. Now, most days I give a lot of thought to what I’m writing about. Today isn’t one of them. I just started writing and ended up here, dragging whatever unfortunate souls happened to be reading along for the ride (assuming they didn’t give up in the first paragraph). While I have a rather lengthy list of useful and productive things I could and should be working on, I choose instead to babble on and on about computer doodling. However, I’ve run out of steam and it’s time to find another outlet for my doodling frenzy. Or perhaps I’ll actually try to work on something from my list of projects. Or not.
I’m beginning to think that I’ve developed a terminal case of writer’s block. I’ve started several blogs over the past several days only to have the ideas peter out after a paragraph or so. It doesn’t help that I’m also trying to write a 1000 character essay on my academic and career goals that’s required for a scholarship. That works out to be about a paragraph – how in the hell is someone as verbose as me going to sum up that in a paragraph. And what are my goals, anyway. I mean, at this point, I’m only interested in going to school until I die so I don’t have to get a real job and pay back my student loans. Somehow I don’t think that would impress the scholarship committee.
Speaking of jobs, though, I have a job this summer (besides the one where I goof off as much as possible). One of my professors called and asked if I would help out at the computer summer camp put on by the college. It’s only for two weeks for 5 hours a day, but it pays $10 an hour – more than my work study job paid. We’ll be teaching kids about web design, which ought to be interesting – I have this sinking feeling that the little munchkins will probably be able to teach us more about it than we will be able to teach them. It will also be interesting since this particular professor has a very, very thick Chinese accent – think Jackie Chan (the actor) trying to teach computer science.
People who know me pretty well are amazed that I’m going to get involved with anything having to do with kids. It’s not that I don’t like kids. It’s just that I don’t have much in the way of maternal instincts. My two older sisters provided me with three nieces and four nephews who have in turn provided me with four grand-nieces and five grand-nephews. I’ve never had to go about the bother of having any of my own because during the rare occasion where I might want the companionship of a kid, I usually had more than enough from their broods to choose from. I’ve got George, my dachshund, and he’s more than enough of a spoiled baby for me.
I’m not a really touchy-feely kind of person. I’ve gotten better about giving and receiving hugs from people, but I’m generally not particularly demonstrative or affectionate (except with George, of course). I’m also not the most tolerant or patient person on the planet. With kids, well, I’ve just always figured that I’m not “The Mom” so I don’t have to put up with a lot of nonsense. I sort of have this standard of behavior that I expect from people, regardless of their age. Naturally, with kids, you have to cut them some slack, but my way of cutting them this slack is to avoid them when they are not meeting my standard of behavior. Like, if they start whining, I walk away. If they throw a temper tantrum, I walk away with a look of disgust. My thought is that it’s the parent’s job to deal with this however they want, not mine – I don’t interfere with that, even if they want to just allow that sort of thing.
The weird thing is that, in general, kids will either ignore me or like me. I don’t know. Maybe there are some kids out there that hate me but are really good at hiding that from me. The “family kids” now range from 30-something to a year old. The youngest ones (5 years old and younger) all live the Georgia so I don’t get to see much of them. But the other ones seem to have generally liked me. I mean, sure they must get royally pissed off at me at times. And yeah I’m sure that they all love me because I’m Aunty KJ and I’m not exactly evil or anything, but you can love people without particularly liking them. Like I said, I don’t know. I just have always found it odd, especially when one would seek me out just to talk. Not too long ago, I had an interesting conversation with a 9 year old about the pros and cons of tattoos.
So, anyway, this all means that my two-week summer job should prove to be as interesting as it is profitable. I’ve got a week to get ready for this adventure – we’re meeting today to plan what we’ll be doing and to fill out some paperwork so we get paid. And it certainly appears that I’ve recovered from my writer’s block. I guess I should tackle that scholarship essay again.
I’m not a big fan of conflict. I know that there are some people who seem to thrive on it, but I’m not one of them. In fact, I’m more of the “Can’t we all just get along” kind of person. I’m sure there have been times when I’ve stood up for what I believe in, but I think these are few and far between (and I can’t think of an example where I have at the moment). I think that in most situations I just keep my ideas to myself and let others believe what they want. I don’t see this as a good thing about me – I see it as a weakness.
For one thing I feel that I’m too wishy-washy about things I should have strong convictions about. I sit in the middle of the philosophical road, trying to see things from everyone’s perspective. I tend to see things as too complicated, too filled with shades of gray to take a stand on one side or another. But even when I do have an opinion about something, I tend to just “go with the flow” and smile and nod and give every appearance of being in complete agreement with whomever is talking even when I’m not. No, this is definitely not one of my better qualities.
Right now, we have a “situation” in our church that is creating some conflict, and I am feeling very much trapped in the middle. It’s not a huge conflict and it certainly isn’t open warfare. But it’s something that bothers me – a lot. Let me see if I explain the problem… No, it’s too complicated, so let me just sum it up: A person that I care about a great deal has a serious dislike on for another person that I care a great deal about. Both have rather integral roles in the church which is the source of at least some of the conflict.
Normally this wouldn’t be too big an issue since (a) he doesn’t have some murderous, loathing hate for the other person and (b) I don’t expect every one of my friends to love every other one of my friends. Part of my quandary is that I fear that Person A will at some point decide that he would rather just leave the church than to try to work it out with Person B. This would be a “Bad Thing” for the church – not horrific, but still bad. But more importantly from my perspective (and this is after all “all about me”) is the decision I will face – do I follow Person A to a new church, or stick it out with Person B?
Being the type who tends to “borrow trouble”, I’ve of course obsessed about this periodically even though Person A has not indicated that he has any immediate plans to leave the church. It’s just something he has considered. I should note that Person A has been a close friend for about 10 years whereas I’ve only known Person B for about a year. But I should also note that I have other friends at this church and am rather happy there (although I’m not sure how happy I’d remain without Person A).
Reading back over this summary of the problem, it sounds like Person A is being rather petty over something minor, or that Person B must be doing something horrendous in the church to create this potential schism. The sad fact is that they are both really good men who only want what is best for the church – they just have different ideas of what that entails. It would certainly make my life a lot easier if I could see where one or the other was clearly “in the wrong.” Unfortunately, life seldom offers easy answers to the little dilemmas it presents.
So we come back to the beginning – I hate conflict. I also hate making decisions, so when I have to make a decision that is a result of some conflict I’m doubly miserable. I suppose I’ll just have to stick it out in the middle until, perhaps, some course of action makes itself known to me that might help resolve the situation. I wonder if Martin Luther had some friend in the church that was torn apart when he decided to post his famous protests concerning the Catholic Church – some poor little cleric who just kept thinking, “Why can’t we all just get along?”
Finally, I have emerged from the swirling vortex of life and have some time to stop and reflect. It’s been over a month since I’ve have the time or inclination to write, which seems so odd when I used to write virtually every day. Sometime around the middle of April, it just seemed like my life had spun out of control and I didn’t have a spare minute to try to put down all that was going on. Now, at the end of May, I feel like I’m getting things back under some sort of control.
So what happened? Nothing spectacular – it wasn’t even particularly sudden. I just reached a point where any spare moment not spent working, eating, or sleeping was spent on homework and study. In fact, quite a few moments that were supposed to be used for working, eating, or sleeping were spent on homework and study. With four classes and none of them “fluff” classes that I could skate through, I found myself floundering frantically just to keep up with all of the assignments.
My sister accused me of procrastination, saying that I could have done more during the early part of the semester to save myself the end of semester crunch. There is a bit of validity to that – after all, I’m rather noted for putting things off. But mostly it wasn’t really my fault. The professors all just seemed to start piling it on toward the end of the semester and I was scrambling just to keep up. It all worked out okay, though. I managed to get three A’s and a B+.
In the few weeks that I’ve been out of school, I’ve basically been sick and/or goofing off. I’ve had this reoccurring sinus infection type thing that keeps coming back. I could probably write pages about all the aches and pains associated with it, not to mention the general feeling of blah-ness, but I don’t think I’ll dwell on it. I need to make an appointment with my primary care physician sometime anyway since I’ve never even met the man and am overdue for a check-up. That’s something to add to my list of things to do.
Despite lying in bed like a slug for a few weeks, life has still been busy. First there were a number of crises involving my sister in Georgia, some new and some on-going. To sum them up:
• My sister, Gracie, had to have a cancerous lump removed from her lip – went well and they appear to have gotten it all. She came down here to have the operation since my sister Andi knows every doctor in town and could hook her up with the best.
• Gracie’s eldest son is going through a marital crisis that seems to be headed for divorce and has everyone concerned miserable. Then to top it off, he somehow managed to wreck his brother’s car and get arrested for possession. I don’t know (nor want to know) the details – it’s all very confusing.
• The son that got his car wrecked had to have an emergency appendectomy. He is also embroiled in a custody battle where the judge rules in his favor (he wants at least joint if not full custody of his son), the mother keeps ignoring the judge’s orders and nothing gets done about it except more court dates.
• Her eldest daughter was having chest pains – since heart disease gallops through our family this was cause for significant concern. Fortunately it doesn’t appear to be anything serious at this point.
• Her youngest daughter is getting married this August. A happy stress, but stress nonetheless.
• Her youngest son… well, so far he has not been involved in any crisis and actually had enough in savings to bail his big brother out of jail.
Keep in mind that these are ALL adult children, so anyone who has small children and thinks that the pressure lets up when they turn 18 or 21 or some other magical number are in for a rude awakening.
Relatively speaking, the Florida branch of the family has been quiet – except for the weather down here. Said weather caused our only crisis thus far when a tree fell on the roof of our house and created an interesting skylight into our kitchen. What seemed like several tons of ceiling and insulation (wet insulation, I might add) filled the kitchen, rendering the use of the sink, stove, microwave, toaster, and coffee maker impossible. We’ve had to eat out every meal and no matter what anyone tells you this gets old fast.
On the upside, however, it looks like we’re getting a new kitchen out of the deal. The insurance company had a contractor out by the next day. The tree and debris were removed and the house weather proofed with tarps by the day after. Now we’re going through the painful process of trying to decide on the color and style of the cabinets and counters. We are people that take hours to decide where to have lunch – decisions of this import are arduous to say the least.
Well, that pretty much brings everyone up to date with me and my life. My job ended with the school year so I’m without structured activities until late August or so. I have one project building a web site for a musician friend that I’ve been working on over the past year – we’re going to knuckle down and get it up and running before the end of the summer. Besides that, though, I’m going to need to find ways to keep myself busy, so one can expect that I’ll probably go back to blogging every day. Don’t you all feel blessed?
I can tell already that this day is going to creep by. I’ve been at work for only an hour and I’m ready to go home. But I have a class this evening anyway, so I might as well stay. Besides, I was out for two days this week with the flu – I need the hours. So, being stuck here until 5:30, I decided to catch up on my blog. God forbid I actually work! I have managed to do some constructive tasks during my first hour so what more do they expect from a die-hard slacker like me.
Psychiatrically, I’m still doing well. I’ve been a bit sluggish and unmotivated, but Dr. Leo seems to feel that it’s because of the increase in the Lamictal and I should perk up once I’m used to it. I certainly hope so – it’s nearing the end of the semester and the crunch is on. I have a million things to do and not enough hours to do them all, especially if I spend my time reading and smoking instead of doing homework and projects.
Besides the crunch to get everything done before May 8th, I’m facing the upcoming summer with a bit of trepidation. There aren’t any classes I can take this summer, even if I could come up with the money to pay the tuition. I haven’t asked directly, but I’m pretty sure that I can’t work as a student employee over the summer. That leaves me with entirely too much time on my hands – not a good thing for me. I imagine that I could come up with some projects to keep me busy, but lacking in self-motivation makes it seem unlikely that I’ll follow through on any of them.
Well, I suppose I’ll have to cross that bridge when I come to it. I already have something scheduled for the first week after school ends – jury duty. Blech. I was actually summoned a few months ago, but I was able to get out of it by providing an alternate time I would be available. I was rather hoping that they would forget all about me, but alas that is not the case. The worst part is the hanging around the courthouse waiting to see if you actually get called in. I think they have a way that you can check in on the internet before you actually arrive to see if your number is going to be called. That would be nice.
I also suppose that I could actually start an exercise program and go to the gym on a regular basis. I’ve been putting it off, using the excuse that I don’t have enough time. Time will be something I have in abundance during the summer so my excuse has been deflated. It will make Ray a happy camper if I actually follow through with it, so that’s worth something. On the other hand, getting all sweaty and icky at the gym isn’t exactly appealing to a professional couch potato.
I guess I should try to do something constructive either for work or school now. Between the lack of internet connection at home (which I think we have finally solved) and the flu, I’m a bit behind in the homework department. In fact, I have homework due tonight that I haven’t even started on. So, on that pleasant note, I think I’d better wrap this blog up. I want to thank everyone for being so supportive of me during my pendulum swings. It hasn’t been pleasant, but such is the life of a boring, blogging bipolar.
by sometime soon 
Thanks for dropping in, sweetness - it was great to see you! 
Take care of that arm, my friend, and talk to the doc if you need to... 
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